After we are put to the test, drilled and polished,
we will have experienced everything. After that we will not be easily
cheated or oppressed. Also, our hearts will not be easily swayed. Therefore,
every situation is meant for us to learn, and the more we learn, the
better we become. This is the reason I do not want to spoil you.
I can feel that you are progressing,
becoming more and more confident, more independent, and gaining more
of a sense of responsibility. You are becoming responsible for yourself
and are able to take care of yourself. When we are not being spoiled,
we feel great! Perhaps when we newly arrive at the center, we have
a sense of strangeness, feeling that no one is taking care of us.
The fellow practitioners all seem very cold. No one greets us. We
have to set up our own tents, and fill our own bowls with rice. (Master
and audience laugh.) Nevertheless, after we endure it for a while,
we feel, "Yeah! It's great! I can bear it, and it's nothing."
At that time we know we can take care of ourselves. What we were unable
to do before, now we can do; whatever situation we were unable to
endure before, now we can. Before we would care about this little
'I,' but now we care no more.